Sur le blog de Condorcee, les 2 posts "de l'indicible méchanceté", m'inspirent quelque réflexion. Comme chacun ici présent s'en doutera, c'est une tendance qu'il m'est arrivé d'avoir, et comme Condorcee, je m'en suis fortement défié. J'ai même essayé d'avoir la tendance inverse, trouver des qualités aux gens. J'y suis même arrivé, à un moment donné. Las, toutes ces bonnes intentions ont été balayées lorsque ma vue s'est enfin éclaircie à ce sujet. En fait, j'ai découvert que c'était bien pire que ce que je pensais quand j'imaginais le pire. Comme le dit la sentence popuplaire, la réalité est pire que le cauchemar. Notamment quand j'étais à la muscu, j'ai toujours trouvé qu'il y avait un tas de cons impressionnant. Mais j'ai découvert un beau jour qu'il s'agissait rarement de cons. Plutôt des dépressifs graves, ou des dangereux psychopathes. Et j'ai contaminé le Lévrier avec ce point de vue. Au début il me disait "Dépressif ? Ah bon ?". Mais un an plus tard, c'était devenu "C'est horrible, je me rends compte que tout le monde est dépressif". Donc, si Condorcee me lit, qu'elle sache que son cas est différent des autres, en ce sens qu'elle est une dépressive diagnostiquée. Mais chez les autres, c'est pire. Ils sont dépressifs et ne le savent même pas. Et c'est la grande majorité de la population. Ils l'ignorent parce qu'ils se cachent la vérité en la recouvrant de tutus roses. Mais leur inconscient sait bien ce qu'il en est, et quand on les voit assis tout seuls dans le métro c'est terrible, ils portent toute la misère du monde. Sans le savoir. Ils croient qu'ils vont bien, et que les dépressifs reconnus vont mal, mais c'est le contraire. Celui qui croit qu'il y a quelque chose a attendre du monde va vraiment très mal, parce qu'il n'est pas sorti de l'auberge samsarique. En revanche, celui qui n'a plus d'espoir a quelque chance de s'en sortir. Il y a de célèbres cas d'illumination subite au sortir de profondes dépressions, UG ou Byron Katie par exemple. Quant au psy qui encourage les dépressifs à profiter de la vie, c'est un criminel, un inconscient. C'est lui qui a tort et eux qui ont raison. Le moyen d'en sortir n'est pas de se mettre à regarder Santa Barbara et à croire qu'une jolie maison avec un chien sont source de bonheur, mais d'acquérir un peu de clarté. Que la vision s'illumine, au sens propre du terme. Mais les objets, eux, seront toujours décevants. Quoi qu'il en soit si vous êtes indiciblement méchant, il est inutile de vous en vouloir, parce que c'est bien pire que ça.
Fear We have the capacity in our minds to create that which we are most afraid of; in the same way that we bury some ignorance like a grain of sand inside the shell of an oyster and build around it until we come up with the end product, which in this case is not a pearl.
God It is finally this consciousness that allows a human being to feel God as the constant energy that is absorbed by all of the chakras, filling him with sweetness and joy. Not feeling happy is only the result of not being in tune with this force and not having the consciousness to contain it. For whatever reason we fail in holding onto energy, we must look to ourselves. We cannot blame anybody or anything. It is only our lack of capacity to hold that which is given.
Revelations In all teachings, the temptations that appear during the revelation period are those things we identify with, that take away the energy or content from the experience. It is the courage to put the bottom on the void, so that the incoming energy is not lost during any experience, that is required. This enables a person to grow endlessly, by surrendering content as fast as it manifests itself.
Seekers It is a remarkable event when somebody presents a situation that exposes their real need. It is rare when even half the truth is given. Usually a situation is distorted beyond recognition. It is as if somebody is saying to me that if I can dig out the real situation, maybe they will allow me to help them. When a situation occasionally is presented in all its nakedness, it is only because the person is defenseless at a particular moment. As soon as they have one stitch to put on their back, they again retreat into themselves, distorting what they said and what they think you said. The ability to hear and see is rare in this world. It only exists in somebody who truly wishes to grow. This has not, unfortunately, been the attitude of most seekers. So few succeed in reaching their goal that it is safe to assume that there are few who honestly pursue a spiritual life, and even then, very few teachers who cater to anything that brings the realism that allows for enlightenment. Spirituality Spirituality is not about being where you think you should be. It is not about being where you want to be. Spirituality is about being on the highest point of an ascending energy that keeps growing and growing. As this energy grows, it completely destroys every level of truth as you live it. This does not mean the truth that has been destroyed was not real. It was real for the level on which you existed before. With students, I am not interested in how long they are with me; I am just interested in one thing: whether or not they are strong enough to break up the horizontal level and continue growing. For myself, I do not want to limit myself by what I was. I do not think, "I did all this work to get to here." That is baloney. That is making a drama of your life and trying to build an image for yourself. The point is to keep growing. It is to have the courage to keep growing, even if it pulls apart the structure of your life. Then it is freeing you. There is nothing wrong with pulling apart the structure. What is wrong is to build yourself into a coffin and then stay there and try to justify it. Either you are working to live on a higher level all the time and to have a rebirth all the time, or you are trying to find justification for staying the way you are. The whole point of what we do is to destroy matter, which is this horizontal plane we sit on: the earth. It is to translate this physical and material matter into spiritual force. This is our work.
Surrender You sit down. Inside you, what is going on? You want to be right. "I'm a nice guy, how could this person do this to do me? How could someone take advantage of me in the business world," or "How can somebody not love me? Don't they understand what I did?" Inside you, these muscles close up; they are protecting you. They are protecting your ego, protecting the image you have of yourself. You sit down to take your breath, and you find that something has robbed you of your heart. What robbed you of your heart ? The need to be right. These muscles do not want to open. They would rather you were safe and secure behind the wall than outside the wall. Surrendering is opening all the muscles. This is the real test of your surrender in a situation. Can you breathe ? Does the throat open to receive the energy ? Are you free to receive this energy and open and see what your condition really is ? If you find out you are constricted in your heart, you have a pain in your back, or you can't get the air down, what does it mean? It means you are closed. What closed you? It does not matter what closed you, you do not have to find the rational reason, you just have to open. You sit and work, and you breathe. I do not have that problem anymore, but I used to sit and take that breath six hundred times in one day, sometimes, to begin to feel a little crevice start to open. If you are closed, you are dead. You can't be right if you are closed. Can a closed person know what he or she did or did not do ? So, if you find that you are closed, you have to drop the whole issue of whether the other person is or is not right.
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